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Now, listen to me, dear child. 

You must know that after the death of my Son, I withdrew in the cenacle, together with beloved John and Magdalene. But my heart was pierced because only John was near me, and in my sorrow I said: “And the other apostles…where are they?”

But as they heard that Jesus had died, touched by special graces, all moved and weeping, the fugitives drew around me, one by one, surrounding me like a crown. And with tears and sighs, they asked for my forgiveness for having so cravenly abandoned their Master, and having run away. 

I welcomed them maternally in the ark of refuge and salvation of my heart. I assured them of the forgiveness of my Son, and I encouraged them not to fear. 

I said to them that their destiny was in my hands. 

Because He had given them all to me as my children. 

And I recognized them as such.

Blessed child, you know that I was present at the Resurrection of my Son. But I did not say a word to anyone, waiting for Jesus Himself, to manifest Himself as risen, gloriously and triumphantly. 

The first one to see him risen was the fortunate Magdalene. Then the pious women. And all came to me telling me that they had seen Jesus risen, and that the sepulcher was empty. And I listened to all, and with an air of triumph I confirmed all in the faith of the Resurrection. 

By the evening, almost all of the apostles had seen Him. 

And all felt triumphant at having been the apostles of Jesus. 

What change of scene, dear child! 

Symbol of those who have first let themselves be dominated by the human will - represented by the apostles who run away, abandoning their Master. And their fear and fright is such that they hide, and Peter reaches the point of denying Him. 

Oh, if they had been dominated by the Divine Will! They would never have fled from their Master! But, courageous and triumphant, would never have departed from His side, and would have felt honored to give their life to defend Him. 

[mei 1930, dag 29]