heiliging

36 : 9 = 4

Allah (AJ) wants to test me...

to bring out a reality.

Those whom are from Ahle taffakur (people of contemplation), they have to contemplate that “Ya musabbibal asbab,” that Allah (AJ) is the one who brings a condition. So brings an incident.

You have a fight with your spouse. The fight that comes out, and the beginning of all the reactions, we’ll call that the ‘Issue’, like the 36. The fight, that Allah (AJ) is the one who causes, he writes for a condition to happen. That a spark will come.

Then this is only about me. Not about the spouse, not about anyone else. Because I’m on a path to mý grave. I don’t need to know your station, your grave, I need to know mý grave.

So, when an issue happens in my life, and I divide that by mé, the resulting answer will come out of a characteristic. So, I take the fight, I divide it by me, and what came out, will be the result, and that’s why... - "Ya musabbibal asbab, ya mufattihul abwab", O Opener of doors! - ...Allah will open a door, if you understood what came out of you, as a result of that imtihan (test).

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A condition happens in life...

a fight between spouses, between children, between employer...

it doesn’t really matter.

The fight, the situation was brought into my life, it came to me. As a result, what happened? I became angered, I began to say things from my mouth, I began to say all these issues from my mouth... Allah (AJ) wants thát.

What happened as a result of a test that came to you, from the equal [gelijkheidsteken] side, not the issue that we fought. No, cause Allah (AJ), He would make ány condition to happen.

Because 99.9% of the people are stuck on the íssue. That we fought because you talked in a bad way to me. But as soon as we started to fight, I started to use swear words, I cursed you, screamed at you, all the words I used at you, thát’s what Allah’s (AJ) concerned. Nót that you guys started to fight.

“Musabbibal asbab”... Of course Allah’s (AJ) going to ignite a situation, boom, hit it. Soon as it hít you, Allah (AJ) wants you to study the reaction. Your reward is in the reaction, and not the issue. But 99% of the people is now, ‘Why you said that to me? If you wouldn’t have talked like this to me, we wouldn’t have fought.’

I said, but you lost the focus! Allah’s (AJ) testing us. He wanted a situation in which we got angered. As a result, he wanted to see how do you reáct in this anger. Because the way of tazkiyah (purification) is not something simple.

When Allah (AJ) wants to bring something that’s hidden within me...

and I don’t even think it exists.

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So, then the majority of people...

are stuck on the íssue.

‘Why you talk to me like that? Why you said like that to me?’ And there’s no growth, there’s no reality in that at all. That’s where all humanity will árgue, the íssue. ‘Why you did like that? No, it was your fault, you started like that. No, no you started like that.’

Tazkiyah comes and says, ‘No, no leave that whole thingI It doesn’t matter!’ This person in your life, the more loved, the more easier it is for Allah (AJ) to push your button. It can’t be the mailman. You don’t care what the mailman says. It’s your children, loved ones, mothers, parents, relatives, somebody whom is dear to you... is the one Allah’s (AJ) pushing the button. 

He hit, and a rocket goes.

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So, then the tazkiyah comes...

And teaches, that when you got angry, and you said 1, 2, 3, 4 horrible things...

Allah (AJ) hold you to account that’s, that’s the issue, why you said these things like that?... Because when He makes a condition, and opens the door... - not only the door of paradise, but the door to your self - ...that these words you use when you fight, these things that we say when we fight and we angered, Allah (AJ) wants those to be cleaned. 

Allah (AJ) says, ‘These words that you úse, when you become angry, if your words were bad, imagine what’s in your heart is worse.' Because, maybe you say, ‘No, I was just angry with you, I didn’t mean to say that.’ But no, tariqah (spiritual path) comes and Allah (AJ) is inspiring within our heart, no, no as a matter of fact, Allah (AJ) says, ‘It’s far wórse!’

“Hatred has already appeared from their mouths, 
and what their hearts conceal is far worse. 
We have made plain to you the signs, 
if you have wisdom.” 

[Family of Imran, 3:118]

Whatever they said from their mouth, is nothing compared to what’s really in their heart. And every time they get angry, the sáme words keep coming out, ‘You’re like this, you’re like this, you’re like this.’ No coincidence you say those things! It’s what’s in your heart is far more greater disrespect and anger for that person.

So, it’s never the issue. That’s why all humanity is on the wróng part of this equation. If you want the secret of 36, you don’t just keep staring at 36! 36 divided by 9, brings a secret of 4. So, there’s a secret in that reality.

“Ya musabbibal asbab,” Allah (AJ) puts it “mufattihul abwab” is on the equations side. If you want the goal, you want the secret, you want the reality, it’s on the other side with the equation.

We got angered, got into a fight, and Allah (AJ) trained you, ‘Don’t say anything.’ What you start to repeat, what you begin to say, how you’re reacting, there’s the reward. It doesn’t matter what the person did, 'why you said like that?'... That’s not important. Because Állah’s (AJ) bringing that condition! 

And Allah (AJ) wants you to reach a point in which your reaction is not like that. Your reaction is just to remain silent. Hmm, okay, angered, because the person’s angry... But the words that you’re using, the phrases that you’re saying, the expressions that are coming out, Allah (AJ) showing the condition within the héart!

That you are on a path of tazkiyah, you are on a path of goodness, you are on a path of good characteristics, then why all these horrible things come out? ‘Oh! because the person bothered me.’ No, no, no, that’s not the way the tariqah looks at it.

Állah (AJ) wrote the plan, Allah (AJ) brought the condition.

He wants to bring oút a reward!

Are you álways going to fall back on all these bad issues, that are coming out from your heart, coming out from your mouth? Or do we take a path in which our life is to identify that. Once you identify, and say that I said, ‘You’re this, I said you’re rotten’...You’re with a friend, you may get into an argument, and you say some rotten things, ‘Yeah you think you’re like this, because you have this car, because you have like money, you have like this, like this’...

 Once you identified, ‘Okay, it’s not the issue for me to worry about, Allah’s (AJ) going to make me to argue with anybody he wants me to argue with.’

When I identify what I was saying, and I write that down, that’s called accounting, “muhasabah,” muhasabah. So, it means, when we are the people of tafakkur, we stop, we realize Allah’s (AJ) going to test us, every argument is going to bring out my contamination (besmetting, bederf).

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When Allah (AJ) bothered Shaitan, He found he’s not making sujood (prostration), everything he did was from pride. One test from Allah (AJ), that ‘Bów down!’, he said, ‘No!’ It wasn’t the argument that was important, but his tafakkur should have said that, ‘I’m not going to bow down.’ Then Allah would have pointed out, ‘You know why you don’t bow down, it’s cause you’re jealous. He got a station you thought you were going to get.’

So, if we’re not identifying the right part of the formula, not the issue, why we got into argument, who cares why we got into argument, a dog could have been thrown in the argument. But the reaction that you had, the words that you used, if you write those... that becomes your muhasabah.

You write your reactions, you write the words that you use, when I fought this person, when I argued with this person. These words will show your character defect. Majority of people have jealousy. So, they use words that you can tell those are jealous words.

Enmity, they wish they had what you had. All of these characteristics will come out with this muhasabah and accounting. What words I use, I write that down.

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Then I begin to meditate.

‘Why I said like this to this person?’

And Allah (AJ) inspire your heart these are words of jealousy. You’re jealous of this person. Maybe they achieve something you didn’t, maybe they are something in your eyes that you’re not. Whatever it is Allah (AJ) said, ‘That’s what’s important.’

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We can’t change the condition.

‘Talk to me nicer when we get together. You’re always rude when you talk to me’...

That’s not what Allah (AJ) said.

Allah (AJ) said,

‘You change yourself, 
I will change the condition around you.’ 

“Indeed Allah will not change the condition of a people
until they change what is in themselves.” [The Thunder, 13:11]

Because the reverse is the same:

‘You’re not changing yourself, 
and I’m not changing your condition.’ 

Because you’re playing now, being stubborn with Allah (AJ), ‘I’m not gonna change.’ And Allah’s (AJ) saying, ‘I’m not changing your condition. As a matter of fact, I’m going to send 10 people to be rude to you, 10 people to talk bad to you, 10 people that insult you.’ Why you want something, maybe you didn’t identify, you have pride that you have all these characteristics.

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So, then again in summary...

Állah (AJ) makes a condition to happen. I divide that by me, not the other person, not anyone else. Allah (AJ) wants to test me, what is that test about? What comes out of it? My words. These words, if I am true to myself and write them, contemplate on these words, you’ll find the characteristic.

Those faults and bad characteristics, if you address them and identify them, acknowledge your sickness by them, Allah (AJ) begin to change your condition. Because you realized yourself, ‘Ya Rabbi, I’m a jealous person, take this desire from my eyes. Don’t let me to be jealous of people.’

There’s a remedy for every sickness. When I have enmity, when I have anger, when I have pride, there are ways in which to work on that characteristic. We pray that Allah (AJ) dress us and bless us and give us a correct understanding.

So, 36 divided by 9...

brings out the secret of 4.

36 = 9 x 4


~bron~