slechts 3 (iv)

What sorrow, my child, what sorrow! 

It takes correspondence, fidelity and sacrifice to follow the stars. 

And if the sun of the Divine Will rises within the soul – how much attention does it not take. Otherwise, one remains in the darkness of the human will.

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Now, my child, as they entered Jerusalem, the holy Magi Kings lost the star, but still, they did not stop looking for Jesus. And as they went outside the city, the star reappeared and led them, festive, into the grotto of Bethlehem. 

I received them with the love of a Mother, and the dear Baby looked at them with great love and majesty, letting His Divinity shine through His little humanity. Bowing down, they knelt at His feet, and adoring and contemplating that celestial Beauty, they recognized Him as true God. 

They remained enraptured, ecstatic - enjoying Him. 

So much so, that the Celestial Baby had to withdraw His Divinity into His Humanity. 

Otherwise they would have remained there, unable to move from His divine feet.

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Then, as they came round from their rapture... 

in which they offered the gold of their souls, the incense of their faith and adoration, the myrrh of all of their beings and of any sacrifice He might have wanted... 

they added the offering of the external gifts, symbol of their interior acts: gold, incense and myrrh. 

But my love of Mother was not yet content. 

I wanted to place the sweet Baby in their arms, and – oh, with how much love did they kiss Him and press Him to their chests! They felt paradise, in advance, within them... Through this, my Son bound all the gentile nations to the knowledge of the true God, and placed the goods of Redemption, the return to faith of all peoples, in common for all. 

He constituted Himself King of the dominators, and ruling over all, with the weapons of His love, of His pains and of His tears, He called the Kingdom of His Will upon earth. 

And I, your Mama, wanted to be the first apostle. 

I instructed them. 

I told them the story of my Son, of His ardent love. I recommended that they make Him known to all, and assuming the first place of Mother and Queen of all Apostles, I blessed them, I had them blessed by the dear Baby, and happy and in tears, they left again for their regions. 

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I did not leave them. 

I accompanied them with maternal affection, and to repay them, I let them feel Jesus in their hearts. 

How happy they were! 

You must know that only when I see that my Son has dominion, possession, and forms His perennial dwelling in the hearts of those who search for Him and love Him – only then, do I feel a true Mother.

[1930, meditatie 4]